Post by Freedom on Feb 27, 2011 8:15:17 GMT -5
2010
Layla Anwar
Tuesday Schizophrenia Blues
Caught in the web...
the web of Schizophrenia
culture ordains
come here, don't go there
push it far
don't hold it near
keep it tight
keep it wide
barometers, scales and thermometers,
weights
measures
balance it out
a bit to the left
a bit to the right
neither here
nor there
get to the middle girl
a jab
if you deviate.
I search for it
I see no middle
I dig for it
pull my sleeves up
dig those tunnels
hard and long
searching for middles
Turbans on the right
bikinis on the left
burqas on the right
silicone tits on the left
They all meet underground
in the middle tunnel
the burqa removed
the bikini veiled
the turban exchanged
for ray bans and an American cap.
Come close
no, go away
a bit here
a bit there
round and round
never anywhere...
Don't touch
just a little
maybe not too much
still not enough...
Find the middle
middle of what ?
middle - just middle
any middle
so they won't meddle.
Meddle in the middle...
taboos
injunctions
honor
command
obedience
a deck of playing cards
now you gamble it away
now you hold on tight...
Disobey ? who me ? never !
lie knitted upon lie
a thick coat of deception
cover yourself
with lies...
Call it social order
call it customs
call it traditions
call it whatever...
keep that coat on.
Clean, keep it clean
thoroughly clean
sweep it under the carpet,
sweep it under the carpet
hide it in the closet
bury it in the sand...
then tie wish ribbons
on sheikh's and imam's
tombs
ask for deliverance
repentance
from sin
deviation
deviation from the middle...
Where is the middle
the middle of what
of whom ?
The middle between my thighs ?
the middle wall
between you and I ?
the middle of the road
where
one direction points East
another points West ?
Silence !
keep it quiet
you ask too much
so and so are doing just fine
why can't you ?
you keep stirring shit
in the middle...
a trouble maker
apostate
heretic
delinquent
outlaw
outcast
pariah
maker of Fitna
chaos,
chaos,
burn, burn the witches of chaos.
No wait,
rock the boat
a little
no, don't
no, do
maybe just a little
but, not too long
not too hard
not too far
no wait,
don't give up
stand by your "brothers"
be strong
be firm
be a fighter
but, not too long
not too hard
not too far.
See what you've done
now you pushed the limits
you've transgressed
trespassed...
Get back
get back to cell 1
to cubicle A
to square 0
to the assigned role...
stay here
stay there
don't move
that's it
you're here
you're there
stay put
right here
right there
in the middle...